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Part swelling flourish, part violent uprising, and part carnage of the self at the realization of surviving yet another winter, or at least that's how I hear it - but mostly Stravinsky's The Rite of Spring seems to be trying to efface death; death of dandelions, death of the mind, death of the past, death to come. At the same time it is necessitated by a death. Or death as the human mind perceives it. A sacrifice if you will. The dance of death, but as I see it, the dance is surreptitiously moving toward its true destiny, that sacrifice is also marching towards victory because its belief system is unwavering. So what we think of as death is just a smokescreen for the uninitiated, while in truth, blades burst through the earth, scything the unprepared air to take its rightful nourishment. I'm afraid when my mind transforms from hearing The Rite of Spring in my head to playing it so it scatters to the outside world. It has always signaled an arrival for me, I'm not scared for myself, I'm scared for everyone and everything that gets caught off-guard. No one should be left behind in this rite but the human chain is broken and only the ones who recognize the frozen sea for what it is, and take the axe to it, as Kafka said, can remember that most of us are retained by water, our origin may as well have been water, swimming is not something that we should have had to learn all over again. If you look closely all this is really not a puzzle. "The unswerving limbs of trees are, for a brief flash, the sum of all human effort to keep its failures at bay, but this is the overgrown mind trying desperately to assign value to its surroundings in relation to itself, to symbolically undo what can't be undone. He took the walk because he thought it would please him, so he could be be fathered by new growth, flourishing green. What has now gathered in his mouth, shaved slices of his own tongue, thin wafer-like stack, is not true or real, it was merely him unable to decide something suddenly, something he was trying to describe to himself. The real harvest rots in fields across the country, there are real mouths, so famished, hungry for days, they would eat their own tongues if they could, they would eat something he can, without his presence, stand for, they would eat what he speaks, too, if they could, but can never comprehend." I assure you that I can now comprehend, vaguely, what I speak or have spoken all along. And I'm not here to eat my words, I will not eat my words, I will feast on them. And so will you. Soon.